Goodbye to 2016…

The last post of 2016.

It has been a rough year in many ways and certainly a rough ending for the year.

I seemed to have survived the many changes at work somehow, but I refuse to think about and worry about what is coming in 2017. Those changes will come and I will try to survive as long as possible while looking for other options.

Again, I’ve lost quite a few friends in the past three years which is always sad for me. I am always sorry for the part I played in that but I also believe that all things happen for a reason, whether I like the outcome or not. So my wish is that they know how much respect I have for them and that I wish them the best always. For my friends that managed to weather all my “storms” – I love you even more and thank you always. You know where to find me in 2017 and you know I will find you!

Being with my parents for these many years and watching their health decline has been devastating at times. I can’t help it, I am a worrier. I dread the day when they will no longer be with us but nothing could have prepared me for the loss of my brother earlier this month. My two older brothers have always been there for me, my protectors in our younger years especially. As we grew older that changed but knowing that all my brothers are there for me to talk to always gave me such comfort. I don’t expect the emptiness and sadness will ever completely go away but I am even more thankful for all my family and pray for all of us.

So goodbye 2016 forever. I am not sad to see the year end. I don’t know if 2017 will be a good year but there will be good moments and that is enough for now. The best I can hope for is God’s grace and strength for myself, my family and my friends.

 

2017

When We Remember…

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You can shed tears that he is gone
or you can smile because he has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that he’ll come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all he’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see him
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him and only that he’s gone
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
or you can do what he’d want:

smile,

open your eyes,

love

and go on.

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“To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die.” Thomas Campbell

On December 8, our family learned of the sudden passing of our dear brother,  and beloved son – Jim.  (Well, always Jimmy to me!)

Jim was 58, and a resident of San Mateo, California. Many may remember him from high school – Antioch Community High School, Class of 1976. But he left Illinois for the Pacific coast in the early 1980s.

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Jim had lived and worked in the San Mateo area for over 30 years and many of you know him especially because of his love and dedication to coaching – particularly soccer. He truly enjoyed coaching and was a mentor and “dad” to many of the kids there.

While we mourn the loss of someone we love, we will also celebrate his life.

He left us too soon. We love you Jimmy!

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“To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die.” Thomas Campbell

A nice turkey day…

Normally it is a very quiet Thanksgiving here, just the two parentals and myself. But this year, my niece and her boyfriend came down to join us.

It has been a very nice, relaxing visit and yes, we had pizza! I am trying to be good about the food since I have my weigh-in tomorrow morning… The weight loss has been going so slowly but at least I have not gained. I am hoping I had a good week.

No other news…yet…

A happy ending to a rough start…

Nothing like a little panic and stress to start your day…but the story has a happy ending. 🙂

Friday morning, as I was driving to my appointment, I was stopped at a stop light, waiting to make a right hand turn. There was an older woman waiting for the light to cross the street, passing in front of my car. I kept back about two or three feet – knowing she would get the “walk” light soon. She stepped off the curb and fell right in front of my eyes. Not being a really calm person, I did manage to put the flashers on and got out of the car to make sure she was ok and if she needed an ambulance, etc.

The part that made me happy was – she was fine but also, about 3 other drivers just jumped out of their cars as well as a person in the corner building also came out. She knew the man from the building and he sweetly walked her to her car.

No one who remained in their cars honked impatiently or were swearing at us. It was nice to see caring and patient people.

A beautiful day to buy a car…

I love car shopping – for someone else. I won’t name the dealership, but I did go with a friend today to look at cars.

Today has been a relaxing, beautiful, sunny day and of course, when we got out of the car, three salesmen started toward us. (Remember how this works Debbie Davis? Swarm! Swarm!)

The man that got to us first was very pleasant, mentioned the lovely weather – and of course, we agreed. Then it started… Business was slow, no one wanted to spend a day like this at the car dealership, etc.

We told him what we were looking for – just looking – to which he replied, “I would really love to sell a car today!”.  My response was, “Well, I would really like to buy a car but not today.” He gave me the look… I thought since he was being honest, I would be honest too. I responded to his look with – “Well, I imagine you would like to sell a car every day right? I am looking but I am not buying today.”  I didn’t feel the need to tell him that I have already decided on another hamster car so I wasn’t looking but went along with my friend who is looking. Of course, once the salesperson saw I was driving a Kia, he only talked to my friend. hahahaha  They were very anti-Kia there.  While my friend was busy with salesperson #1, another salesperson started to talk to me and once she found out I had a Kia – well… I would never buy a car from her.

My friend did not buy a car today either but this story reminded me of my first new car-buying experience. I was 26, with my mom, and she has always been pretty shrewd. I picked out the car, the salesperson was not bothering me – they never do when I am with someone else. He and my mom were negotiating a price but not getting anywhere.

So we were ready to leave the dealership because – enough was enough even back then. And the salesperson made the statement to my mom – “If you don’t buy this car, my kids won’t eat.” I knew that was a mistake but I just waited for a few seconds. And my mom’s almost immediate, priceless, response was “Well, you better get a new job!”… She was not joking but it was funny and still makes me smile.

If you want to know, we did get that car and at the price Mom offered… So I think I will be taking Mom along when I get my new hamster car…

The PinLady… start of week three…

I think for the most part, the acupuncture is working but because I cannot always make the appointments, I am unsure about a few things. Apparently the treatment changed a bit last Friday and Mom was told to expect a little more discomfort as she adjusts to the newer treatment. She was also given a form of St. John’s Wort – not sure that is a good thing but for now, she is taking it (and “it is not doing anything”).  Appointments this week are on Tuesday and Thursday. I may try to run over during my lunch to see what is up…

Last week was a terribly stressful week at work. There was a big shake up, my job has been eliminated, but I am on another project so I am safe that way. I really liked what I was doing and I thought I was doing something worthwhile, but I don’t think the upper management saw things the same way. I spent many hours feeling worthless but am turning it around eventually.

This week – Ash Wednesday and the season of Lent began. I spent a good part of Wednesday in church and that was so wonderful. It has been too long. Unfortunately, after all the meditating and praying, I had to call in for a work meeting to get the bad news. 😦 But onward we go…

We had some snow today – still a little bit falling now. It was light and fluffy so I shoveled to get some fresh air and move around. Also, because the last time it snowed the car got stuck at the end of the driveway. hahaaa May have to do one more round of shoveling.

Night…Let’s hope for a good week!